It’s September 8,2019! Time flew by sooo fast. The reason why I put the title as ” The feels” is because lately I haven’t been feeling myself. If you don’t know me, Im a happy, loud, hilarious person. I love to make people laugh. Seeing people smile and happy makes me happy. But now Im not in the mood for it anymore. I get really annoyed easily, I don’t smile as much, and Im more serious. Those things don’t make me happy at all. People lately been asking me if I’m ok because they say I been looking a little bit down lately which I am. But I just tell then Im ok even though Im really not ok.
I tell people Im ok because I feel like people deep down doesn’t care what I feel or what I go through. To me its just easier to say Im ok so I don’t have to explain myself. In person I’m really horrible with words. Thats why I rather text it out or something.
Yesterday I told one of my coworkers that all I do is eat now and he asked me if Im depressed. I was actually thinking am I depress? Because I really have no idea if I am. So I asked my friend and she told me maybe Im not depress maybe Im just stressed. Then I look at it and maybe I am just stressed out with everything. Ill explain in a different post of what is the things Im stressed out because I can go on forever lol
I use to talk to my friends about everything but I cant because I feel like they don’t even care. They just care about what they go through. So everything that is happening Im holding it all in and thats why I feel like crying all the time because I have no one to talk about any of it.
I figured I should just write blog post of everything that is happening right now so I can just let it out somehow instead of letting it get built up on the inside and exploding later on.
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